Secrets

The past two nights I slept poorly.  I had horrible dreams and I think I know what is behind it. My secrets are haunting me. It is like the fog outside my window coming in and smothering me.  It weighs heavily upon me like the fog sitting on the mountaintops.  Because of it I find it hard to be totally free with myself and happy.  Isn't a good place for me to be in right now.  Not only does it cause me mental pain but physical too because I've never been good about secrets.  At Xmas and Birthdays  I've always liked to give hints and tease the person about what their perfect present was going to be.  This isn't the same what I carry inside.  Talking to Bevy helped some but not enough.  I think it is time to talk to myself.