It's Hard To Live On A Carousel

I absolutely love carousels especially the antique ones that have the horses, tigers, zebras and benches.  Up and down we went and if we had the courage we would lean far out and grab the rings hoping for the brass one.  In all the rides at an amusement park that is my favorite.  Wish life was as easy as that.  Lately I feel like I've been up and down but the brass ring isn't in site.  This morning was great, I woke up early (now that is a rarity) fed the geese, fed the dog, had my coffee and toast.  I felt like the weight of the world was off my shoulders.  I had planned on running errands to town and then sneaking by the pound and looking at a border collie they have there.  Didn't go quite that way. Just because I was happy and feeling good didn't mean my spouse was.  Like I've said before we must  deals with mood swings which can just suck the life out of me.  So even though I'm not supposed to drive I took the opportunity to run to town by myself. It was a nice day out. I stopped by the Art Store and saw friends I hadn't seen in months. I got to see how my photography is displayed in the front of the store right as people enter.  That made me feel great. Now would someone buy a picture or two.  I got all my errands done and stopped by a little store hoping to find a monkey.  No not a real one a stuffed one as in toy.  Dylan my grandson loves monkeys and I've been on a search for the perfect monkey not as scary one.  Well in a corner of a display case there it sat all alone. THE monkey so I hope.  I tucked him under my arm, paid for him and headed home.  I figured I'd better not go to the animal pound it wasn't worth the aggravation I'd have when I got home.  I get home and found hubby is sleeping. He says he is sick.  So I go downstairs and leave him to his resting.  I get the dead possum cleaned up which actually was quite a trick.  Tonka had played with it too hard so it was in our driveway when the snow came.  By the time the snow stopped it was too covered and iced in to get out of there so it has sat for a few days. Hey it is ok it was refrigerated by Mother Nature.  You know you live in the mountains when you judge how deep the snow is by how it covers the dead critters in your driveway. lol  Ok back to today.  Possum gone and off I go to the pond to to check the goose nest.  Now Gertie is a new mother and she made a great next and buried the egg nice and deep in the hay. BUT she isn't sitting on the next and it is cold so I pick up the egg put it in my pocket, tell Gus the father goose  he better not bite me and off I go to the incubator in my laundry room.  See I'm having fun today despite the carousel ride. It was when I got inside and reached for the brass ring that I fell off the carousel.  When my depressed person gets mad or frustrated anyone nearby gets interrogated.   I usually make the mistake of first allowing it then I kick myself in the ass, impose the Golden Rule and I take care of my business.  But I can't help to feel angry because it just isn't right.  I'm telling you it's hard to live on a carousel.