Pulling Back

There are days with the CFS, fibro and Lupus that my body just totally revolts.  No, I don't mean my body is revolting - it plain attacks me.  The pain and other symptoms get so bad that if feels like I am made of cement and it is an effort to move.  The problem with the "cement" is it is on fire and the muscles feel worse than when a normal person comes down with the flu.  On those days I have to pull back.  I don't mean to be anti social it is just I don't have the energy to be a social human being.  I even have to let my husband know I'm not mad at him I'm sick.  Like most people he doesn't understand it  but he is adapting pretty good and he tries.  When I'm like that though I snap at people so it is best for me just to cover up with a blanket, crawl into the lazyboy and channel surf.  I'll tell you on those days, like yesterday, I am so bad I don't even like Judge Judy and I adore her. lol  What is strange is that as fast as it comes on it can leave that fast too.  Even though I know I shouldn't today I was outside puttering around. Which is why hubby is probably upset with me.  I haven't attempted to go down to the pond and the water isn't running and I don't give a shit to be honest.   So for now, I think I'll recognize I was in the sun too  much today because my muscles are burning again.  I should smack myself up the side of the head but it won't help....see I never learn completely.